Two years ago, I didn’t see the point in my life. I was depressed, lonely, and broke. I was scared of society, of other human beings, and worst of all, of myself. I would avoid looking at mirrors while inside the house, and avoid making eye contact with other people while outside the house. You can basically say that I was just trying to “get by” another day in my life.
I knew something was missing, but I didn’t know what. It felt like I was always carrying with me a feeling of uncertainty and emptiness. I never told anybody about my issue because I didn’t want to bring people’s spirits down, so I just pretended everything was always okay.
To escape my thoughts and feelings, I hung out with people who seemed to always be happy with their life. The only thing was I hung out with the wrong people who often depended on drugs and alcohol for temporary relief.
Although I definitely felt a sense of connection and satisfaction when I was with them, the activities we did were always the same – smoking, drinking, and just hanging out. I didn’t feel a sense of fulfillment or growth. At the end of the night, I was still the same person going to bed.
My life basically remained like this until I decided that I needed clarity, a direction to go, anything. I decided that I wanted to leave the country of America for a while and ended up traveling to Taiwan, where I stayed at my uncle’s place located behind a temple.
For eleven months, I explored the culture, learned the language of Mandarin Chinese, and taught English to students. That was “my reason” for being there on paper, but inside, I was really there to see if I could turn my life around.
Despite my depression, there was always one thing that cheered me up. Every weekend morning, my enthusiastic uncle would knock on my door, wake me up, and ask me if I wanted to go hiking in the mountains. Honestly, I never wanted to spend my early hours of the day doing this and would rather have stayed in bed, but since I was staying at his place, I went with my uncle to these mountains.
He drove through these winding streets. The further up we drove, the more my ears got stuffed. When we got there, I couldn’t even see the mountains. All I saw was this narrow, dirt passage of steps. I would look at my uncle and he told me to go on.
So I started my first steps. The beginning didn’t seem so bad, but sometimes I had no idea where we were going. I just trusted taking the next step and sometimes the next steps seemed to last forever. But there was something about those steps that were uplifting.
The more we walked, the faster I started to go. I’d pass the green trees, moss, rocks, and hear the birds chirping, sound of insects, and the calm, cool morning wind passing by. There were times where we climb ropes just to get onto another rock. Other times, I’d be so far up that I’d see my uncle below me.
I remember one time when I was waiting halfway to the top of the mountain; I took a view at the city below. It seemed busy and lost at the time, so fast paced; everybody trying to compete with one another. And here was my uncle, trying to help me get to the top of the mountain. Then it hit me.
I realized that that’s how it is for a lot of us. We are so absorbed in our own self-interest that we forget the bigger picture.
After that journey of going through the mountains, I took something back with me to America. I needed to change, not just for myself, but to help other people who were going through the same issues that I went though. So like how my uncle was trying to help me out, I started a blog to see how I could help others out.
I’ve always admired great interviewers and how they are able to extract valuable information from others such as deep, personal stories. Among the best of the interviewers are Charlie Rose and Katie Couric. I thought to myself, “Why not give it a try?”
On June 1st, I started small and interviewed people that I had came in contact with online. My goal was to not only help me become a better speaker, but to see things from another person’s perspective, and of course, extract as valuable information for helping others improve their life in any way possible. This was the beginning my journey.
This website is a journey of learning from others and getting us to take action now. Every week, I’ll post a new topic that I think are important aspects we can all improve on. I will ask a series of the most important questions I think are most important in that topic so you can get quality information.
Although I’m on a journey right now to change my life in every aspect of my life for the better, I can’t guarantee that listening to these interviews will change your life too. But I can guarantee that I will do whatever I can do here to help put you in a position to create a better life for yourself.
I believe that to master ourselves and to master life, the path is going to be a long and difficult process, but I’ll take the first step for you and share what I find along the way.
So that’s it. I’m going to do my best to knock on your door, wake you up, and tell you to go with me to the mountains, but I’ll also need your support. Let’s help each other get to the top by climbing this mountain we call life.